Why is it that even though we have everything in life we are still not content? I had everything at my hands; money, car, furnished house anything I needed I had it, family friends you name it. Yet my heart was empty. After my last break up I found myself living with the consequences of what I did to push my boyfriend away. The way I acted was not correct and I ended up feeling guilty. I cried so much because we don't realize what we are doing until it has gone to far. I realized that my act was for attention only and it just lead me to a heart ache.
I cried to God for answers to my questions. I was desperate to do anything as long as the pain went away. I remember that I opened up my Bible looking for an answer. I read through passages and came across one that said something like "trust in me, I will take care of you as long as you follow my word." I don't exactly remember the passage but those words stayed with me. All this time I was not following His word. I was feeling jealous, envious and lying to others and myself. When you fill your heart with God's word you stop having negative feelings. We start understanding the meaning of life and loving those around us. We learn to love them and accept them with all their flaws. That when we follow a positive path we do not feel shame or guilt because we are acting accordingly and with a reassurance that the outcome will be positive.
If God had to break my heart that many times in order to find Him I would do it all over again because now my heart is filled with His love. My life has meaning and a purpose. Many of us don't know that but God just wants what is best for us. It's easier said than done but we have to start the change. It's fighting with yourself day by day to be filled with His wisdom and love. We grew away from Him, creating bad habits and negative choices. However, I am here to tell you that you have the rest of today and tomorrow and every single day that God gives you to change. He is waiting for you with his arms wide open, ready to hug you and nurture you with His love and reassure your steps because it's only forward with God.
