Hello, hues. I honestly can’t remember the last time I posted on Blogger. Do people even blog anymore? I’ve always shared pieces of my life and not because it’s particularly exciting, but because I know I’m not the only one navigating these things. This blog definitely needs an update. There’s so much on my mind that part of me wants to write all of it anonymously.
As I get older, it feels harder to hold onto what’s actually healthy for me. These past few years have been one bad decision after another, and sometimes it seems like the water will never run clean again. Deep down, I know what’s good for me, yet something in my head keeps choosing the opposite.
I’m now an aunt to two beautiful little humans, and sometimes I wonder...how can I ever guide them toward what’s best when I can’t always choose what’s best for myself? (Thankfully, that’s their parents’ job...I’m just the fun aunt.) It makes me feel like I know nothing at all, like the hard moments I’ve lived through never managed to teach me what they were supposed to. Does everyone feel this way at some point? Ever since I can remember, I’ve wanted to be that girl, the one who shows up for herself in every way that matters.
I thank God every single day for giving me another chance. But how do I actually step into the life I want? When I read my old posts and diary entries, it hits me that I’ve never fully rewired my habits or mindset. Maybe it’s just about choosing the change again and again until it finally sticks...until my brain learns a different way to be.
There’s so much time in a day, and somehow I seem to dedicate it more to my bad habits than the good ones. But I don’t want this to feel heavy or negative. I want it to feel freeing. It’s actually very liberating to just release my thoughts into the air, to put them somewhere outside myself.
Maybe this is the shake-up I need. Maybe this is the moment to turn things around. I read somewhere that writing down your thoughts, your goals, your plans...actually helps make them real. So here I am, writing, dreaming, and deciding that I can choose differently, one day, one decision, one mini change at a time.
I want to be easy on myself about my life, and I think breaking my goals into smaller, achievable steps will help. Here’s what I’m aiming for, in no particular order:
On workdays:
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Wake up at 5 AM.
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Hit the gym and complete my morning routine.
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Limit myself to one cup of coffee instead of 3–4.
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Stay focused at work and make conscious, healthy meal choices.
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Keep dinner hearty but simple, and opt for light late-night snacks.
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Follow a consistent nighttime routine to wind down and be in bed by 10pm.
On days off:
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Explore my town and try new experiences.
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Read more and nourish my mind.
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Skip the gym but commit to stretching and light movement.
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Spend time outside and absorb more sunlight.
It’s not about perfection but about small, conscious choices that add up over time. I can take it one step at a time, and each day is a chance to practice being the version of myself I want to be. Writing this down, sharing it, and seeing it on screen already feels like a step forward. I hope this helps motivate someone out there who might be feeling the same way. Reminding us that we’re not alone, and that change, even in small doses, is always possible.
Wishing you well,
K.
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